For the first time in recent memory I don't have ten deadlines for the next 2 hours; don't have to change clothes 3 times a day in strange, dilapidated bathrooms to accommodate social norms... *shakes himself*... let's rather not talk about those dark times, they're a comin' back...
So. Holidays. That's what it's all about, eh? Or not. For some reason, I tend to like work periods more than actual holidays. Sure, I love mooching as much as the next person (or even more, for that matter), but you get to a point where your moochiness just sort of... dries up. You start eating everything in sight; stroking the dogs backwards to see what their reaction is; make all kinds of weird combinations of spreads and sandwich them between two slices of whatever is in the breadbin... believe me, a Bovril, honey and cheddar biscuit tastes better than it sounds. It's not that I can't find things to do; it's more that, unless pressed by deadlines and the people around me, I very rarely find the willpower to do the things I should. Not out of laziness, per se, but more out of a sense of disurgency. Yes, I did just make that word up.
I think this is why I sign myself up for so much. I have a LOT of dreams and plan on actually realizing most of them, but I also realize that, left to my own devices, I will probably never find the time to do any of the things necessary to further me in life. So, signing up for, say, the musical leader of our a capella group or administrator of the hostel website is just ways to get me to fill my day and learn a thing or two, so I can carry those skills forward into the next set of things I sign myself up for... And with this, I suddenly realize that I've become one of THEM. Those mindless zombies that rush from 8 to 5, leaving a trail of joylessness in their wake. But not entirely.
See, as of a year ago, I've started reinventing myself. Making time for things that I like AND that can help me become a better person. It's interesting how much you're capable of if you really want something. And I mean REALLY want it.
So, leaving you all with these (slightly disorganized) thoughts, I start working on my next assignments. Learning choir music, writing songs for the a capella group, teaching myself PHP, trying to get some physical exercise done, keeping up with friends...
This is what life is about. Signing out with a smile tonight
